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On Remembering “Lost Cause” Ancestors

I was asked recently by a member of my cohort of newly minted Marine officers in 1966 to comment on a pair of emails on the subject of bringing down Confederate monuments and memorials. One was a defense of the Confederate soldier and his memory, and by extension soldiers who take up the cause of the “countries” in which they live. The other strongly supported the removal of Confederate symbols. The suggestion included the kind observation of me as someone who might be able to comment “objectively” on the subject. Feeling a bit undeserving of the observation, I nevertheless offered the following to the email group.

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Thank you for thinking of me in this way—capable of offering an “objective” perspective– though I don’t think I am worthy of that judgment. But I will offer a couple of thoughts anyway, for what they may be worth to anyone.

First I am not sure that in this day and age “objectivity” has the straight forward  meaning one might expect, given that unspoken (even unrecognized) assumptions and predispositions underpin so many judgments we hear spoken and written. For those in the intelligence business, awareness of such predispositions or biases within themselves is essential and require frequent “sanity” checks. Unfortunately, these occur relatively rarely among those who must act on intelligence, the policymakers in the National Security Council or White House, where predispositions tend to drive everything.

In my mind, having worked these decades in the business of intelligence, “objectivity” is only approached  when one acknowledges the underlying assumptions or premises of one’s beliefs and looks equally critically at the quality of the evidence or information that then influence one’s judgments. In the following, I hope I am as clear.

So let me begin with a few such underpinnings related to this subject about myself:

I am the son of Luftwaffe fighter pilot (250 missions over the Eastern Front, shot down on the last in February 1945)—accordingly childhood in New York City required explanation of family roots and roles during WW II. So I have feelings and experience in explaining ancestors involved in “lost causes.”

Relatedly, as an immigrant (arrived with my mother on June 25th 1950), I have an enormous amount of empathy for those who took the following as a signal of hope:  “Give me your tired, your poor,

Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.

Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”

At the same time, I am married to a former member of the Daughters of the American Revolution, and I have always been amazed (and humbled) by the devotion of its members to ancestral heritage. (I hardly get past my grandparents!) I understand organizations like the Sons (or daughters) of the Confederacy hold the same  devotion, and I have read some of its material on this subject.

And, of course, like all of us, a veteran of Vietnam, a war I entered into fully supportive of what I believed were legitimate US objectives.

And, in total frankness—and this may totally rule me out of the realm of “objectivity,” I have never been more worried about the survival of the principles that I have held dear about my life and service in this country. And I will say up front, I do not believe the threat comes from anarchists, communists, or other leftist evils readily trotted out in US history as prime existential evils.

For those who care to read on, I offer the following, which includes at the end a recommended piece of reading that only the other day arrived in my email inbox—a reading about Germany’s reckoning with its Nazi past and how that experience relates to America’s reckoning with slavery and subsequent evils related to race.

Having now read both emails on this subject, I find things to agree with in each. At the same time, I think each is speaking from a different perspective or historical plane. In a sense, I guess I am saying that I see each talking about different, although overlapping things—perhaps because of the unstated assumptions each holds in these items.

First to the letter thinking of Confederate soldiers. I have empathy for the message, which I read as an homage  to those who take up arms and sacrifice their  lives and wellbeing  to serve when called upon by their “country”—whether it was the Union or the Confederacy or the United States generally.  I think we all must have some empathy, as we veterans of Vietnam all took up arms in what to many was and remains a wrong cause—and a lost cause. In this context, we have heard no end of stories of veterans of both sides from the war in the Pacific treating each other with respect and honoring each other’s bravery and dedication to their duty. We have seen it in the experience of many of our vets who returned to Vietnam to find warm welcomes. Certainly such feelings are not universal, but I sense that is a fundamental element of the letter—soldiers [including all of us in B Company] did their duty to the best of their ability at the command of what was to them proper authority. And I see this with empathy from the perspective of those whose family trees include Confederate fighters in the Civil War (as does my Louisiana born spousal unit’s). So, in a sense, from both of our perspectives, we have respected family members who fought for “lost causes.” I believe that mourning for those lost or respect for those who risked all is not an unreasonable sentiment.  

At the next level, honoring with monuments and statues symbols of causes for which these ancestors fought  brings me into complete alignment with the alternative perspective—for all the reasons offered and possibly more. I have read benign rationalizations of the Confederacy’s cause—e.g., the union was a great “experiment” and all its members were free to leave the experiment. So leaving the Union was not traitorous; it was just exercising an option to leave the experiment that always available to it. Maybe. But the defense of human bondage was reprehensible, even in the day to many with conscience and an environment to think of it in that way. And the way in which that commitment to bondage over the years evolved into so many other forms is equally so.

And here—returning to my observation about my father’s service in the Luftwaffe,  I offer another perspective on this whole subject, offered in  a book entitled  “Learning from the Germans: Race and the Memory of Evil,” by the philosopher Susan Neiman (published last year). An interview of Neiman in the New Yorker landed in my inbox today. I offer a segment of it here because I think it is germane and speaks to the issues both Woody and Virgil address in their emails. The following excerpt, in italics, is long, but I think it speaks to Neiman’s historical research on this subject in a way that may be more compelling—at least better thought out–than anything I might have to say. The complete article can be reached (I hope) at: https://www.newyorker.com/news/q-and-a/how-to-confront-a-racist-national-history?utm_source=onsite-share&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=onsite-share&utm_brand=the-new-yorker

I don’t idealize the process that the Germans went through in facing up to their criminal past. It was long, it was reluctant, and they faced an enormous amount of backlash. Most people outside of Germany have come to think the Nazi times were so awful that, the minute the war was over, the German nation got down on its knees and begged for atonement. And that’s just not the case. In fact, the few people who did get down on their knees, like Willy Brandt, in 1970, were vilified by the majority of their compatriots.

Q: You are referring to the West German Chancellor who fell to his knees as a gesture of atonement, in Warsaw, in 1970.

Precisely. There is a very famous picture that went around the world, and I think that for most non-Germans it is the iconic picture of postwar Germany. But that’s not reliable. Think about Brandt himself, who, as a Social Democrat, went into exile as soon as the Nazis took power. So, personally, he had nothing to atone for. But he still felt that, as the leader of a nation, he ought to make a gesture. What we don’t know, or what most people don’t know, is that the majority of the country thought it was wrong for him to get on his knees and atone, and particularly to be submissive before Slavic people.

So the change was from seeing themselves as the war’s worst victims—and I’ve seen mouths drop open when I tell this to an American audience, but they really did see themselves as the war’s worst victims. It’s not something that Germans tend to talk about. They’ll tell you about their Nazi parents, or their Nazi teachers, but they won’t say that their parents not only went along with Nazis but thought of themselves as the worst victims of the war. And I realized it was the same trope that you hear among supporters of the Lost Cause. “Our cities were burned, our men were wounded or put in prisoner-of-war camps. Our women were violated, our children were hungry, and, on top of that, the damn Yankees blamed us for the war.” These are exactly the sentiments that you would hear in West Germany.

I think it is very natural for everyone to want to see their ancestors and their nation as heroic. And if you can’t do heroic, then the move is to see yourself and your nation as a victim. But the move from seeing oneself as a nation of victims to a nation of perpetrators is one that the Germans finally and with great difficulty made. And that’s a historical precedent.

So, there is my perspective. Offered in response to a fellow Marine’s suggestion. If it rises to a level all might think about, I will be gratified.

Good night, and Semper fidelis,

Andy V.

May 25, 2020: A Heavy Duty Memorial Day

Most Memorial Days I manage a visit to Arlington National Cemetery. That will not happen on this Monday. I don’t guess, given the state of the Covid-19 pandemic, that I will even venture into the District of Columbia to visit the Vietnam War Memorial. Unless things change shortly, I will stay home and think about the fallen, those I knew and those I did not.

Memorial Day Weekend at home in Reston, VA

I’ve posted on Memorial Days past:

“Memorial Day 2017–Paying Homage to Marine Classmates of 50 Years Ago” https://www.fanande.net?p=508

“Memorial Day 2017-Remembering a Solemn Duty” https://www.fanande.net?p=523

“Memorial Day 2018-Some Scenes, Some Thoughts” https://www.fanande.net?p=579

In those posts I thought of comrades who gave there lives believing they were defending the liberties of Americans. I think of them today. But I also must think of those who have died and are dying during this pandemic. And as I think of them, I can’t help but ask again, as those of us who put on uniforms of US military services have asked of themselves when taking our oaths, “What have I sworn myself to? What will be my solemn obligations? What will I be giving up to carry out those obligations?”

The members of my Marine cohort of 1966 knew their obligations included going to war in Vietnam. We also knew that our personal preferences stood low in the priorities of our service obligations. We knew our faces would be shaven daily, our hair cut weekly, our uniform standards and civilian clothing expectations non-negotiable—not subject to our whims or any sense that we had a “Constitutional” right to those choices while we were in service of the country and others (underline “service to others”). Invoking the Constitution to object to wearing a tie or getting a haircut under such circumstances was simply unimaginable.

Most Americans understood that sacrifices were in order during a crisis on the scale of World War II, at least I am not aware of any law suits objecting to rationing on Constitutional (or any other) grounds. Not having researched this, I can only guess, but in that emergency, it is hard to imagine a suit, if filed, could have succeeded.

All of this speaks, of course, to the anger, sometimes violent, over requirements or requests to wear face masks to reduce the risk that people will unwittingly spread the coronavirus to others. Perhaps this is a reflection of the fact that since World War II ordinary citizens have not been obliged to sacrifice even small freedoms to help advance a national cause. The chief obligation seems to have been to stand at sporting events and applaud men and women in uniform or first responders of one kind or another—all deserving to be sure, if somewhat tiresome to those for which it is intended.

Now, in this “war,” all Americans should think of themselves as combatants. How then is being asked to suffer the discomfort of facemasks to protect others too much to ask? How can such a small matter be such a grave infringement? I would ask those whose names appear below, “What is too much to ask in the service of fellow citizens?”

In memory of those many who have given their all in other wars. av

Postscript: Today (May 25) I received and read an emailed essay Maya Lin had written about her thinking behind the design and her experience in the competition and the completion of the memorial in 1982. She was only a senior at Yale when she entered her drawing into a design competition her architecture class fortuitously learned about. It was a competition that would draw more than 1300 entries. She wrote the essay soon after she designed the memorial, but it wasn’t published until the year 2000, when it appeared in the New York Review of Books. The above image, with B Company classmate Matthew O. McKnight’s name at the center, demonstrates precisely what Ms. Lin hoped to achieve. Read “Making the Memorial,” Maya Lin, November 2000.”

The Passing of John McCain III-August 25-September 2, 2018

We have just watched the passage into history of a complicated man, a man whose personality and purpose both won over and angered people. And, of course, as his eulogists demonstrated, his life has been freighted with politics right through the ceremony in the National Cathedral today.

I never met John McCain III myself, though I met his father in the Philippines in 1967, while my unit (3rd Battalion, First Marines) was refitting to fight from the sea. I believe he was Commander in Chief of the Pacific Fleet then, and our Task Group was under his chain of command.  We had a few drinks over conversation in the Subic Bay Officer’s Club as he wished us well on our coming special landing force missions. I cannot recall the date of that get together, but it had to have been very nearly the time his son was captured in late autumn.

It is not hard to think of John McCain III in the way the many pilots of my Marine cohort from our USMC Basic School Class 1-67 (July-November 1966) saw and pictured themselves. No doubt McCain, as do my aviator Marine comrades, spoke not of “getting into their aircraft” but of “strapping them on.” Fearless, confident, and in an intimate relationship!

D5WK0N John McCain with Squadron members and a North American T-2 “Buckeye”. Photo © Alamy Stock Photo

Whatever John McCain’s qualities and positions, he is one of the most, if not the most prominent, symbols of my war-fighting generation. So my USMC flag, with black mourning ribbon, is up in front of our house in tribute to that A-4 pilot and in memory of many others from our day, including our Basic School fliers.

(Please be sure to read the comment I added to this post on 2 September recounting a Basic School classmate’s encounter with Lt. McCain more than five decades ago. It is a great story.)

And with the same kind of thoughts, Tracy and I decided yesterday to run down to the District and book into a Marriot that is a 10-minute walk away from the Vietnam War Memorial Wall to observe Cindy McCain’s placement of a wreath honoring Vietnam casualties and veterans at about 8:45 a.m.  It turned out to be a quiet, yet solemn, event, with observers lining the chained-off greensward leading down to the wall and the walkway by it.

People gathered early around the Memorial Wall. It was a quiet and seemingly reflective group of all ages.

 

 

 

 

 

 

The procession had left Capitol Hill at about 8:30 a.m., arriving at the Memorial shortly before nine. Secretary of Defense Mattis and White House Chief of Staff Kelly escorted Cindy McCain to the prepositioned wreath, and she saw to its proper placement and paused to pay respects. From our range (and with my eyes) it was a bit hard to see, but the remembrance offered to fellow Vietnam Veterans was touching.

It didn’t take long for many present to add their own sentiments. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After the funeral party left, Tracy and I moved to Panels 14E and 15E to pay respects to Marines close to my experience, 2nd Lt. Earl F. Smith, from my Basic School Class— the first of our Basic School cohort to die in combat—and Cpl. Charles P.  Alexander —the first member of the platoon that I led in Vietnam,  Lima/1, 3/1, to die under my command.

We then returned to the cool comfort of our hotel to watch the memorial service at the National Cathedral.  We would hear all the powerful and moving eulogies of leaders Senator McCain came to respect and befriend. I can only hope their words will ring powerfully among our leaders today—as the ideals expressed were the high ideals that took John McCain III and so many others into service and sacrifice.

Semper fidelis,
Andy

Another Marine Immigration Story

Marine Basic School classmate John Wegl (B Company [TBS 1-67]  July–November 1966) wrote me to comment on my last post about the climate in the United States surrounding emigration of refugees from Europe after WW II.  After this introductory note, I will reproduce his comment/actually a brief summary of his story. It is a story that begs for a memoir—in many ways much more than mine might qualify—because it speaks poignantly not only to the experience of families displaced by World War II, which it most certainly does, but also to the strains on families caused by the Cold War, which extended John’s separation from his parents for more than a decade!

Intro: By my reckoning, our Basic School class had four members who were born outside of the United States, all in Europe. In addition to me, there was John (born in Romania in an ethnic German family), John O. (born in the Netherlands–and only first name given because I don’t have his permission to use it), and Matthew McKnight (born in Wales, of a US soldier and English nurse, and killed in Vietnam in October 1967 [and discussed in https://www.fanande.netwp-admin/?=571 — “And One Thing Leads to Another, and Another“).

John’s abbreviated story, offered with his permission, follows below.


Thanks for sharing [Andy].  It was a different time and a different national mindset.  My parents came over in May 1950 along with my six-month old sister—flying in through New York and then straight to St. Louis.  They were sponsored by a family relative who had been in St. Louis for quite some time and arranged for their flight, housing, and a job for my father, and that is another story onto itself.

My parents had been reunited in Germany after the war—my dad coming from a POW camp in England to Germany and my mother from a slave labor camp in the Ukraine (then part of the  Soviet Union), where she and about 70,000 other ethnic Germans from Romania were deported in January 1945.  Quite a few books/articles have been written about that tragedy.

My mother had gotten sick, and instead of being sent home, she was shipped to East Germany in 1947.  She eventually worked her way into West Germany to join my dad in ’48.  I was with my grandparents in Romania and finally got permission to join my parents in the states in 1958.  Ten years to the date I landed in New York, I landed in Da Nang.

While in college and in the Marine Corps, I wrote letters to my grandparents–mailed them to my parents, and they sent them on.  My maternal grandfather died while I was in college.  My paternal grandfather was killed by Tito’s partisans while trying to escape the Russian advance, and my grandmother and my father’s sister and her family were ordered to go back home.  That grandmother died in the early 1970s.  My maternal grandmother, who essentially raised me, got to Germany in the early 1980s as part of Germany’s “freedom purchase” of Germans in Romania.  I got to visit with her twice while I was still on active duty and then saw her one more time after I retired before she passed away.  I did get to her funeral—she outlived both my parents.

I have not written a memoir—started a few years ago but got overwhelmed with other commitments and have not picked up on it.  Maybe after my tenure on the local board ends in December I will start up again.  — John Wegl


John would go on to serve a career in the Marine Corps. Among his duties was working in USMC Recruiting Advertising Branch (1969–1972), as the Marine Corps ramped up its “We Need a Few Good Men” recruiting campaign. Featured were these two posters—which I suspect could be could part of his memoir’s title.

 

 

Memorial Day 2018—Some Scenes, Some Thoughts

A Marine comrade, reflecting in an email early this morning on his many years of regular visits to the Vietnam Memorial Wall on Memorial Days,  stirred me to take the 30 minute drive and visit Arlington National Cemetery this morning.  It would be crowded in certain places, but solitude, my preference, is not hard to find. (click on images to enlarge.)

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But before I moved to quiet places, I aimed to visit at least two of my Marine Basic School (1966) classmates. Classmates reading this, of course know them. One is Tom King, also a University of Rochester classmate of mine and two other Basic School mates.  He was killed in July 1967–in a battle in the DMZ, which became the subject of a remembrance in the New York Times “Vietnam 1967 Newsletter.” (some notes on the series here.)

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The other, Jerry Zimmer was a Marine Aviator who was killed in the notoriously dangerous Que Son Valley southwest of Danang.  On a mission to support a reconnaissance patrol in trouble, the F-4 he was flying was shot down. He and his RIO crashed into a mountainside in rugged terrain. Their bodies have yet to be recovered, and so a memorial stone stands in Arlington for Jerry, call-sign Jackpot.  Jerry’s wife, Elaine, continues the search to this day and has some hopeful indicators.

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At least three other members of our Basic School Class lie in rest in Arlington.

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I suppose countless web sites show images of Arlington more moving than the below. I simply offer them in companionship to any Marine brothers and friends who might have taken the walk with me–and in memory of other comrades of all services who lost their lives in Vietnam and all other conflicts and are buried in countless other places–at home and abroad.

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Given the continuing commemoration of veterans of the Vietnam War, it was no surprise those vets were much in evidence, but more than ever I overheard conversations about the wars fought since then, in Iraq and Afghanistan. Would that were not needful.

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And now, mostly just scenes.

 

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The Pentagon, in the center of the image. A slight mist was present throughout my morning.

 

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Solitude–and sadness of another kind–is easy to find in Section 27, which, between 1864 and 1868 was used to bury former slaves who had moved to Washington, DC. Some were refugees and some had served the Union Army in some capacity.

 

 

 

The number buried there is just over 3,600. As the closeup below shows, the identities of many were not known or known simply, as Mrs. Brown, on the right.

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The story is told in freedmenscemetery.org

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The below speak for themselves, I think.

Semper Fidelis

 

 

 

One Thing Leads to Another and Another and Another …

In late December 2017, in my day job as the managing Editor of Studies in Intelligence, I sat in on an interview with a reporter from the New Yorker magazine. The result appeared in the January 8th issue’s “Talk of the Town.”  It led to some ribbing–the reporter, Nicholas Schmidle, described me as “jauntily” dressed. I can’t say that the word “jaunty” has ever applied to me but then …

The important part of the story was triggered by my mentions of a an article I had just about finished editing for the December 2017 issue.  “A CORDS Advisor Remembers: The 1968 Tet Offensive in Vietnam and the Seizure of Hue” was a remembrance by a retired CIA officer of his being trapped in the city of Hue when it was overrun by communist forces in first days of the Tet Offensive of late-January into February 1968.  At the time, the author, Raymond Lau, was a Marine captain serving with two other Marines on detail to one of the CIA-led efforts to weaken communist control of rural areas in the northern region of South Vietnam.  In the eight days of his entrapment, Lau wrote of the deaths of the other two Marines, both killed by communist gunfire.

The New Yorker article was nice enough. What followed was better. It happens that people in Alabama also read the New Yorker. One reader, a senior attorney in the office of the Alabama attorney general noticed Lau’s story, pulled it up from cia.gov and saw that one the Marines killed in Hue during that episode was Marine Captain Robert Hubbard, a graduate of Auburn University who was commissioned in the Marine Corps in 1963  through Auburn’s Navy ROTC program.  The attorney, John Davis, called my office and explained that the Auburn NROTC was about to honor Captain Hubbard with a portrait painted by his wife, and he wanted to invite Ray Lau to attend. I gave Mr. Davis the contact information, and Ray accepted and agreed to speak of the late captain at the ceremony.  On February 6th, almost 50 years to the day of Hubbard’s death, I joined Ray. He spoke, and I presented a letter of gratitude for Hubbard’s service from CIA leadership—the first formal revelation of his actual mission at the time of his death. The event was described in the Opelika-Auburn News.

During my visit to the Auburn NROTC unit, I noticed that there was no recognition of the life and service of another Auburn University NROTC-commissioned officer of my own Marine cohort,  Lt. Matthew O. McKnight, who was killed in action on October 18, 1967 in northern South Vietnam.  I made the observation in a conversation with the Marine Officer Instructor, Major Daniel Murphy, and Mr. Davis. Generously, Mr. Davis and his wife took it upon themselves to provide a portrait of Matt, which was unveiled at a ceremony honoring local Vietnam War veterans that took place in Auburn High School on March 29. The event, which for eight of us from B Company who joined in, is told in a posting on the B Company (Basic School Class 1-67) web site and the Opelika-Auburn News.

And the third “another”?  That is the genesis of another project of reflection brought on by the presence at the  unveiling of Matt’s sister, Isobel. She brought with her some of Matt’s many letters home. Isobel later sent me the entire collection, which I have since read. They are at once heart warming and saddening and, of course, full of portent that would not have been evident when they were written in 1967—even though Matt hardly said anything about the war he was engaged in.  And that war looked a lot like mine, as we were both assigned to the First Marine Regiment.

My project?  Travel back in time, rummage through memory, through Matt’s photographs, through Command Chronologies of the Second Battalion, First Marines (Matt’s battalion), and the New York TimesMachine and try to learn and provide for Isobel (and myself) the context of his letters.

The results of those rummagings I will share when I can.

May 19.

Fiftieth Fatigue? A Summation

On February 12th the New York Times cancelled its  “Vietnam ’67” newsletter for the week .  Naturally, as Marine veteran of the war during that year and into 1968, I have followed the series, edited by Clay Risen, pretty closely since it began last year.  Its most recent entries have focused on Tet and the battle of Hue–an event at the center of an emotional, for me, commemoration that I attended last week of a Marine killed in Hue. Therefore, I think I was ready for this break–and the opportunity to use it to create a kind of summation.

The series has included materials by a wide range of contributors. Many are vets, some are family members, and many are Vietnamese. The series has included work by academics and other careful observers of the war. (The archive of previous newsletters can be found at this URL:  https://www.nytimes.com/column/vietnam-67?emc=edit_vm_20180212&nl=&nlid=53613712&te=1).  I have read far fewer of the contributions than perhaps I should have, and in scanning the archive today I found myself pausing time and again as a story caught my attention. A few, very few, examples:

“Blood Road,” by Rebecca Rusch, about Rebecca’s bicycling the Ho Chi Minh Trail in Laos to find her father’s burial site. He was weapons systems officer on an F-4 shot down early in March 1972.  She made the trip in 2015. My Marine cohort from Basic School in 1966 has a similar experience as the widow of one of our lost flyers reflected on the search for the remains of her husband in the Marine Corps Gazette. I mention Rusch’s article because it speaks to the lives of those who lived to bear the suffering and other burdens of losing loved ones in war. We are fond of saying our lost should never be forgotten. Neither should we forget  the families of those who died.

 

 

 

“The First Time I Met Americans,” by

“At Quang Nam, a Raid and a Reckoning,” by

The stories I most appreciate do little to take on the “big” questions.  I listen/read to the arguments, sometimes with interest, but mostly politely. The questions will never be answered.  Instead, my favored stories address individual experiences and feelings and thus approach describing, pixel by pixel, the full complexity of that experience–pixels I can’t even organize entirely for myself–the above being a feeble attempt to do so.

Stories that trouble me the most are those that demonstrate an improbable prescience about the future from those with lenses of limited focal length.  As fellow veterans of the period covered in this series like to say endlessly, “When I left, we were winning the war.” Yet that was never–or rarely–said with any confidence that we were truly marching to victory in 1967.  Nor were we speaking cynically about the future. For many, though I can only speak for myself, the outcome we eventually saw in 1975 was hardly preordained, and at least this Marine could speak, and I think honestly, that as difficult as the fight had become there seemed to be grounds to continue it and to keep the faith that something good could still come of it.  But, by the time I got home and heard the points of view of classmates I had left behind in college, I learned that the position had become pretty indefensible in their minds. In this respect, truly saddening has been reading the poisonous comments of some readers,  as though they are not only reading about 1967 and on but they are living in the period.

Looking ahead to Vietnam ’68 (will the series thus be renamed?), I see another two years of reflections on the war with personal meaning.  Non-infantry members of my 1966 cohort of officers would follow after more extended training throughout 1968 and into 1969.  Lives continued to be lost and those who lost them and those who were left behind must continue to be remembered.

A Story: As the Baseball Turns, From 1966 to 2017

The Background (From Wikipedia):

The 1966 World Series matched the American League (AL) champion Baltimore Orioles against the defending World Series champion and National League (NL) champion Los Angeles Dodgers, with the Orioles sweeping the Series in four games to capture their first championship in franchise history. It was also the last World Series played before Major League Baseball (MLB) introduced the Commissioner’s Trophy the following year.

This World Series marked the end of the Dodgers dynasty of frequent postseason appearances stretching back to 1947. Conversely, it marked the beginning of the Orioles dynasty of frequent postseason appearances that continued until 1983.

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The Orioles closed out their four-game sweep on Sunday, October 9th. In Quantico, we followed the game, which began at 1400 and ended, probably, around 1630. Three of us, all members of the lowly (alphabetically speaking) fourth platoon of B Company, TBS 1-67, got it into our heads to pile into my ’62 Chevy and head north to Baltimore to take in the celebration that was surely going to take place. (And yes, we packed some beer to chug en route–true confessions.)

On arrival, we found precious little in what we thought would be the celebratory parts of Baltimore. Resigned to not much, we spotted a hotel with a bar/restaurant in downtown Baltimore, entered, found a table, ordered up more beer and studied a carbon copy of a telegraphed filing of a story to a St. Louis paper about the game and the series that had been left on the table.

Suddenly a group of cheering young people (okay, almost our age college kids, guys and girls) stormed into the bar. We watched, bemused. Then, one of the women looked our way, stopped the others, and shouted to us, “Hey, you look like Dodgers!!” One of us, maybe me, maybe Sully, said, “Yeah, we are just relaxing before our flight back to LA.”

Quickly, they joined us. One of the women said she was a reporter for her college newspaper (possibly Towson, possibly UMaryland, most unlikely Johns Hopkins), and was hoping to do a story on the Series. I handed her the carbon copy of the newspaper report and said it was from a friend of mine who had filed it and left the copy with me. Here, as I said I hoped it would be useful to her, I was also hoping for a round of free beers.

Excitedly she took it and started to grill us about who we were. I said I was Joe Moeller, the third pitcher in the Dodgers rotation behind Sandy Koufax and Don Drysdale, who pitched only a couple of innings in relief in the first game. The Dodgers had elected to stay with their top two, future Hall of Fame, pitchers in games three and four. I figured Moeller’s was a safe personna to adopt–who after all had really seen him? Sully decides on Jim Lefebvre, a top notch second baseman. Sully, from Los Angeles, knew what he was talking about, but it was a risky choice. The third member of our group (not at all into baseball) declared, to my horror, that he was a member of the Dodgers “taxi squad.” This went entirely unremarked upon to my amazement.

And so we chatted about the game and this and that, and, to the best of my memory, we got no beers out of the deal–just as well, in retrospect.

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Fast forward to January 2016. I am schmoozing after an annual award ceremony for the journal I edit and manage (Studies in Intelligence) and chatting with an award winner. Somehow we get into baseball–I don’t know how–and she reveals that the best man in her wedding was Joe Moeller. “No kidding!!” I respond and tell the above story.

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Fast forward again, to December 2017. The award winner calls and says she wants to meet with

An autographed baseball from Joe Moeller, December 20

me at work. “Sure.” We agree on a time. As promised, she materializes and hands me a little gift bag inside of which is the baseball you see in the image to the right. What a world we live in!

 

Memorial Day 2017: Remembering A Solemn Duty

Thinking in retrospect the other day about my remarks to family members at Wednesday’s B Company Memorial Dedication, the below photograph came to mind.  Showing Marines in a makeshift chapel service in late February 1969 at a northern firebase—C-ration and ammunition boxes serving as pews and pulpit and a CH-53 making a delivery in the background—the photograph is a powerful statement in its own right.

But something more specific caught my eye as I stared at the image in the Navy Times I had been leafing through  late one afternoon that February. I was relaxing with the latest issue in my apartment after a day of language school classes at the Defense Language Institute in Monterey, CA.

I realized that the figure nearest the camera, in the first occupied “pew,” was Lt. Lee Roy Herron, a Marine I had met at DLI.  Unlike me, Lee Roy had left Basic School for six months of Vietnamese language training at Monterey before going to join the war. I’d had my 13 months in Vietnam and was enjoying the challenge of learning a new language (Chinese Mandarin) and loving the Monterey/Carmel/Big Sur territory of California.

Lee Roy (a graduate of Texas Tech in Lubbock) and his wife Danielle and I had become friends. They were a deeply religious, relatively newly wed couple. He was a determined Marine, anxious to get to Vietnam, but also eager to learn whatever this veteran of the theater might have been able to teach him.

As I marveled at the image, the telephone rang.  The voice at the other end identified himself as a Marine captain calling from Texas. He said he was calling to tell me that 1st Lt. Lee Roy Herron had been killed and that Danielle had asked to have me bring him home to Lubbock from Travis Air Force Base (north of San Francisco).  Awed by the timing of the call (I still am), I, of course, could only say “Yes.”  But I managed to keep my composure long enough to suggest to the captain that he attempt to acquire the image for the family. This he did, and it would be present at Lee Roy’s funeral. It would again be present at a dedication of a memorial at Texas Tech for Lee Roy about 15 years later.  (The photo was apparently taken by PFC C. E. Sickler, Jr., USMC, on January 26, 1969. It appeared in the Navy Times on March 5th. It now also is present at an exhibit at the National Museum of the Marine Corps dedicated to chaplains who had served Marines over the years)

Anyone who has seen the 2009 made-for-tv movie Taking Chance will understand my role in “taking” Lee Roy home. Every stage of the flight, plane change between San Francisco and Lubbock, ground transportation to a funeral home and handover of Lee Roy’s body to a funeral director was orchestrated to convey respect and honor.

And, of course, there was the family. Seeing Danielle and Lee Roy’s family was as heart wrenching as can be imagined.  And yet, in the end, I think I received more comfort from them than I was able to offer.* I would see them at the dedication of Lee Roy’s Texas Tech memorial because they had thought to invite me (though they only remembered me as the “nice, young Marine who had brought  Lee Roy home.”)  Happily for me, Lee Roy’s best friend, another Marine officer from Tech, David Nelson, had known how to track me down.  And at that ceremony I had the opportunity to tell the story of the image.  And more importantly, to again understand, appreciate, and remember the families of those we have “taken” home.  All the more so on Memorial Day.***

So, today, with respect to B Company, I offer my greatest admiration for the way in which Bob Lange labored to bring families into the creation of the B Company 50-year Cruise Book—a forthcoming profile of B Company and its members—and to give families opportunity to participate in the dedication of the memorial to their B Company loved ones. Those able to come were genuinely touched.***

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* At least two B Company members served as Casualty Reporting Officers in their careers, Dick Hulslander (Birmingham, AL) and Rob Hill (Pittsburgh, PA).  Each had to oversee the funerals and interments of more than 60 Marines who lost their lives during the war.  They have each addressed more than their fair share of grief and faced the full range of emotion, from grace to anger to bitterness.  In addition to me, at least two members of B Company have taken Marines home to their families.

** David Nelson would go on to write about his friendship with Lee Roy (“In my experience, never has a photograph captured the spirituality of men at war as well as this one. That Lee should last be photographed in that way speaks more about him than I could possibly offer.”  In 2015, he wrote about the photo for the Saturday Evening Post. In it, he quoted me as saying, ““In my experience, never has a photograph captured the spirituality of men at war as well as this one. That Lee should last be photographed in that way speaks more about him than I could possibly offer.” I believe it still.

*** Family members of all of B Company’s deceased that Bob was able to reach will receive gift copies of the Cruise Book when it is printed in June.

Memorial Day 2017–Paying Homage to Marine Classmates of 50 Years Ago

My Memorial Day fifty years ago was spent in South Vietnam, in the company of my Marine rifle platoon—First Platoon, Lima Company, Third Battalion, First Marines. I had graduated from the Marine Corps’ Basic School for officers seven months before.  The 185 members of our class—B Company, TBS 1-67—had gone their many ways just before Thanksgiving.  One third of us went into the infantry and onward to units in the First or Third Marine Divisions. We almost completely lost touch with one another after our assignments to Vietnam, especially so for those who, like me, left the Corps after four years of service.

Incredibly, through the efforts of a couple of mates who, in the early 1990s, began to wonder what happened to us all, we began to meet and communicate regularly. We have met in reunion every five years since 1996, and just last October we had our most recent, marking 50 years since our experience together in The Basic School. (The story is pretty well told in a multitude of notes and bulletins in the B Company website one of those mates established years ago: TBS167.com.)

At our reunions, we had always paid homage to those we had lost during the conflict: seventeen were killed in action—including one who died of wounds years later—and four died in the line of duty.  However, beyond donating commemorative bricks that line the walks of museum paths, we had never established a formal memorial in remembrance of them. Through the leadership of one of our classmates (Col. Hays Parks-Ret.), we at last did so on Wednesday, the 24th. Through the efforts of another class leader (Col. Bob Lange-Ret.), we had invited as many family members of our lost mates as we could find. A good number came, as seen above. (More about this in another post.)

It was all done the Marine Corps way, with a chaplain (Fr. John Cregan, Lt.Col. USMC, Ret.) on hand, a color guard, and a bugler to play taps. The plaque along with its dedication wreath is situated on one of several memorial walls the USMC Heritage Foundation has built along a beautiful memorial trail that winds through the grounds of the National Museum of the Marine Corps . A 30 minute video of the event (including my own brief contribution directed to family members) can be reached on the B Company website.  Attached is the program with a close up o f the plaque DedicationProgram-web.

While thinking this day of those whose names appear on this plaque and on the  Vietnam War Memorial and memorials around the country, I think too about the names that don’t appear. These include the names of beloved family members and friends, that I imagine to be invisibly filling the spaces surrounding the engraved names.  Also absent, but in need of remembrance, are the many, many more names of those who suffered wounds, visible and invisible, many felt to this day.

Semper Fi